Boys

I wonder if I wore a sign on me that said will do anything for a guy if I could even get one guy. They probably would run away in terror as they do now.

Tired

I'm so tired that I can't sleep.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. It's not like anyone would miss me. Ethan and my mom would be in heaven if that happened. They wouldn't have to see me anymore or watch me flip out about the stupidest things.

My song of the day: Broken by Seether
Everyone knows what I have to say so I'm not going to say it instead something else. There is much to hate in this world, and too much to love.

My song of the day: Broken by Seether
Can you make the lightning strike the two people I despise? Maybe if I think about it long enough it will, because supposedly if you think of something happening long enough it will.
I want someone to say things like what Shaun Morgan says in Broken. That would be awesome, but not likely to happen.

Heaven

My song of the day: View From Heaven by Yellowcard
Don't you always wish you could go with them to heaven?

My song of the day: The Brightest Bulb Has Burned Out by Less Than Jake and Billy Brag
"You’re feeling more dead than alive" that’s totally me.

Why?

My song of the day: Heaven is Falling by The Ataris

Bush is a dumb-ass. He should never have gone into Iraq. Why did he do that, because he wanted to kill more of our soldiers and spend more money that really isn't there?

Looking For The inevitable

My song of the day: "I Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" by U2
Does anyone ever find what they are looking for? I don't think it’s really possible to find that one thing that you are looking for. Especially if it’s true love. That almost never happens.

My song of the day: Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
I wish I lived on an ocean avenue. Or at least someplace close so that I could smell the ocean air all the time and go to the beach. It would be awesome to live in NC near a beach.

Stay Up Late

Date:

My song of the day: "Stay up Late" by The Talking Heads.
"I wanna make him stay up all night." Sounds like what I was made to do Sunday morning. I thought I was going to die after that. I still think I might.

My song of the day: "Working in a Coal Mine" by Devo

This song always puts me in a better mood. Even today when I didn't thought it was possible.

Surrender

My song of the day: Surrender by Cheap Trick
"...surrender but don't give yourself away." That’s some good advice.

Real Punk

My song of the day: 1880 Or So by Television
You've got to love the real punk. Especially one of the original bands from New York.

Silence

My song of the day: There isn't one. There is only silence in my life right now. Silence will be the death of us all.

Respect

My song of the day: "A Little Respect" by Wheatus
Sometimes all a girl wants is a little respect.

Black

My song of the day: The Reason by Hoobastank
Black isn't always a negative color. Sometimes it can be a very positive color.

4/20

My song of the day: Running away by Hoobastank
This day always makes me happy even though it’s not really a good day. Hitter’s birthday, Columbine, national pot day, ect.

Fight

Yelling the worst thing you can do. Don't yell. It only makes things worse. I don't respond to yelling. Just don't do it.

Peer Pressure

My song of the day: "I Can't Make Me" by Butterfly Boucher.
You can't make yourself doing something if you don't want to do it. So the whole peer pressure thing makes absolutely no sense. If you cave under "peer pressure" it’s only because you want to do it. Not because everyone is making you.

Confess?

My Song of the day: "Don't Confess" by Tegan and Sara.
Don't confess to all the things you have done that you wish you hadn't. Just keep them locked up inside you. That way you won't be hurt by what people think when you tell them.

Snow Storm

My song of the day: "Your Winter" by Sister Hazel. There's nothing like a good snow storm to put everything back in place.

100 Years by Five For Fighting is and awesome song. It may seem like we have a long time to live, but we really don't. Our lives seem to fly by and we never do half of the things we plan on doing.

When I am going to my dad’s house there is this hill that I go over. When you get to the top you can see Safeway. It always makes me so happy to go over that hill.

Darkness

Chelsey's words of wisdom. Beware of dark corners. Silence in the death of us all.

I always thought that teachers, even college professors, were supposed to teach their students things. Not just give them the text book and tell them to read and take notes. Then give them a quiz 15 minutes after they start reading. That’s what I always thought but maybe I’m wrong. I usually am.

Even when you’re young you still have aged and you have a past. Adults seem to forget this. They just assume that because you haven't lived as long as them that you don't have a past or that you haven't aged, you’re just a little kid. Everyone has a past no matter how old they are.

Music can change a mood so easy. If you’re in a bad mood and you listen to just the right band you will most likely be in a better mood. I really believe this even if everyone thinks it's crazy. I don't. It always works for me.

Dream

My life seems like one never ending dream.

Weather

The dark clouds that are in the sky for some odd reason made me happy. When I walked out of the school today I was hit with a wash of cold air that felt so good. I love this weather. It makes me feel so good. Especially when I can curl up in a blanket with a cup of tea, a good book, and listen to music.

I'm listening to Soul Back by Butterfly Boucher. Living in the U.S. is kind of like giving your soul to the government. I don't know why exactly, but I will come up with a reason as to why I believe this. Everybody that reads this probably think I'm a bit insane but I promise I'm not.

I was listening to Why Does It Always Rain on Me? by Travis. Lately it seems like its been raining on me all the time. When it looks like it might stop and start turning around something happens and it goes bad again. If I could get a job and save up some money and do one of the things I have wanted to do for a while maybe it would stop raining on me and things would turn around.

Safety

I was listening to Driftwood by Travis. It’s an awesome song. I don't know why but it just is. It made me think about how wherever you go you will never be safe because there really is nowhere you can go that is safe. We just drift through life like a piece of drift wood.

Circumstances

If things had happened differently when I was younger would I be who I am now. A shy anti-everything person. Or would I be more outgoing and not anti everything.

I was thinking about suicide (no not doing it just thinking about it). I don't get why people would commit suicide. If you’re that depressed why don't you try to do something about it? I think that people that commit suicide are just selfish. They don't want anybody to help them. They want people to just be sorry for them because they are so depressed and everything.